still looking for me….

Wow the joys of working Saturday nights…. Okay so its not really that bad…Typically I probably wouldnt even complain this much other than Becca and Paul are in town and that just seems to ruin this whole being responsible thing…all I really want to do is say hey…Party time…Plus ergh Matt and I are struggling lately…yah that really is a good way of putting it… I know why we are doing it….and it sucks…we both feel so guilty. I know I do…it  just seems to bounce back and forth who’s the guilty party… one day all the blame is on me than the next Matt feels that things are all his fault because he cant change the way he feels…. plus he begins to think that he isnt good enough for me…wait a second now…isnt that up to me to decide? why I do believe it is…Ofcourse he is!!!!! He treats me so incredibly well…He is fair and honest…respects me…cares for loves me….he is polite(usually) but who is polite all the time? haha…try and add a little humor……….yah its dry I know…